Although my family have put me under house arrest, I am really quite enjoying this sedentary lifestyle. I haven't been bored once. Thankyou for ongoing prayers.
We're now 24 weeks and hurrah, the scan on Thursday showed that it's all looking as good as it possibly can at the moment. I am so thankful for developments in modern medicine and a great public health system.
We are so thankful to God that we've reached 24 weeks and I'm not in labour. This time, last pregnancy, I was already starting to have contractions, lying in the RPA labour ward.
We have thought of Teddy lots this week especially. It blows my mind knowing that he came out around this point, so small but beautifully formed. I can never imagine what Teddy would've been like full-term. He will forever be "Tiny Teddy". Raphy's Peter Pan, is what Mikey has called him.
Our third son, is not a replacement. Being pregnant with another son and having Raphy around has not made the pain of losing Teddy any less. Rather, the time passing has made us miss him more as it's longer since we were with him.
Losing Teddy has made us extra thankful for Raphy and the wonders of this life growing inside me. Teddy has changed us forever. Grief is a strange and new journey for us. You think you are doing ok and then get hit with a wave of pain. However there is still so much joy and things to be thankful for.
Thanks for listening
Love Lil
PS: Mikey's back has just started playing up and he is finding it hard to lift Raph or do anything for that matter. Please pray.
So glad Baby #3 is doing okay! Praying for you guys! I'm sure Teddy and my baby have already met up there in heaven, and are having a ball playing together and praising Jesus! Heaven is the best "day care" we could hope for until we get to see them again. ;)
ReplyDeleteI forgot I also wanted to say that your grief is very valid, and I'm so glad you're articulating it. Am praying specifically that God comforts you in your grief.
ReplyDeleteIt was awesome to see you looking so well last Thursday Lil - and the cake was yummo too! I was also very impressed with raphy's skill on the potty - well managed by all concerned I must say! Praying that God in his mercy might grant Raphy's second brother a full term stay in your uterus and that God in his sovereignty will give you the strength to cope with whatever outcome in fact eventuates in God's perfect timing. Praying for you both, my beloved godpa and godma.
ReplyDeleteOh Mike & Lil, your third son is definitely no replacement. Two different little boys each crafted by our God....
ReplyDeleteRhonda xo