Saturday, April 16, 2011

Lil update and reflections: 16/4/2011

Although my family have put me under house arrest, I am really quite enjoying this sedentary lifestyle. I haven't been bored once. Thankyou for ongoing prayers.

We're now 24 weeks and hurrah, the scan on Thursday showed that it's all looking as good as it possibly can at the moment. I am so thankful for developments in modern medicine and a great public health system.

We are so thankful to God that we've reached 24 weeks and I'm not in labour. This time, last pregnancy, I was already starting to have contractions, lying in the RPA labour ward.

We have thought of Teddy lots this week especially. It blows my mind knowing that he came out around this point, so small but beautifully formed. I can never imagine what Teddy would've been like full-term. He will forever be "Tiny Teddy". Raphy's Peter Pan, is what Mikey has called him.

Our third son, is not a replacement. Being pregnant with another son and having Raphy around has not made the pain of losing Teddy any less. Rather, the time passing has made us miss him more as it's longer since we were with him.

Losing Teddy has made us extra thankful for Raphy and the wonders of this life growing inside me. Teddy has changed us forever. Grief is a strange and new journey for us. You think you are doing ok and then get hit with a wave of pain. However there is still so much joy and things to be thankful for.

Thanks for listening
Love Lil

PS: Mikey's back has just started playing up and he is finding it hard to lift Raph or do anything for that matter. Please pray.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Cheese


Here's a photo to show you that we are doing ok so far.
We are approaching 24 weeks, which is the time that Teddy entered the world.
We are really praying that we get past this emotional anniversary and that Lil can stay pregnant for at least a few more weeks.

Till soon
Love Mikey, Lil and Raph

Friday, April 1, 2011

Update from Lil: 1/04/2011

Hi everyone.
Yesterday (Thursday 31st March) we went for a scan to see how the cervix was looking. We were excited and nervous to if the stitch was doing its thing. And yay, Professor H said it was all looking as good as possible.

Last week, my cervix had shortened to 1.5cm and now it was more than 3.5cm. The Professor said it was a very difficult stitch to put in as my cervix was so short. I now officially have an incompetent cervix. And if I need a c-section for any reason to get this baby out, this Shirodkar Suture can stay in for any subsequent pregnancies. (Shirodkar was the Indian doctor who came up with the procedure in 1948.) Apparently such a stitch is far more difficult to put in as it is deep in the cervix, and thus will require an Epidural to take out. Eech!!!

So for now, all is well! And we wait to reach 24 weeks, after which a baby is "viable" (an awful term) and then we push on to 28 weeks and beyond.

So, I've been told to take it easy and a I have a scan fortnightly to check the cervix. I've been taking full advantage of ling on the Pang couch reading and listening to Classic FM.

Thank you again for all the prayers. We are feeling less anxious and have had a chance to process the last week. Please pray for Mikey who is exhausted. I have been reminded that all our lives hang by a thread, by the grace of God.

Love Lil